Twinge of Pain

March 26, 2012

It's Monday again and I wish I could spend the whole day in bed just being lazy.  Cuddling my pillow and just stay under my soft white cold sheets.  Damn! I just felt tired these days.  Must be the weather outside.  It's 9.30 am on my clock and its very late for me because I know my little men are waiting for their mama to wake up. 

My little men usually are up by 7am everyday! whether they sleep late or early that night. Am just glad its the start of the school holiday and I just got my new househelp two months ago, so staying late in bed a little is luxury for me.

Time runs so fast when your actually doing a lot of things especially when you are raising a 6 years old Triplets!. The sun has set and bedtime has rang its bell.  As my little men was fast as sleep, I felt a pain and a twinge right there on my right breast.  It was something new I thought.  But I couldnt have my period so early. It was a different pain that it kept me up the whole night until i fell asleep.  Yet every move I make that night, that little ball thing is giving me a twinge of pain. 

March 27, 2012

Late again that one of my little men Zander said "wake up now mama". I checked my clock and its almost 10am and I still have to bath them because they have Kumon Homework after. I forced myself out of bed.  Yes, that twinge of pain is still there.  I texted my husband told him i needed to see an OB today.  But I had a second thought, maybe this will go away today, maybe I just strained myself from doing an old yoga routine that I haven't been doing for months.  This day I waited for it to just go away.

I am not my usual self and its almost end of the day I havent move, I just sat there, watch TV and just let the loud playful voices of my boys sink in.  I asked my househelp to get some groceries from the store because for the first time I dont like doing it.  My husband convince me to see the doctor the next day.


March 28, 2012

I was a bit nervous to do this.  I never had a permanent Obstetrician in the Philippines because I conceived and gave birth to my Triplets in Doha Qatar where we stayed for about 3 years.  The last time I saw a doctor was 2 years ago when I was hospitalize for Denque.

My name was called.  The lady OBGyne was very pleasant and warm.  I was comfortable with her right away. After doing some background check about my triplets, my period and the pain that I was having on my breast she did a breast exam.  She tried to be very careful because everytime she moves and felt it right there, the pain is always there.  She knew, I know from the sound of her voice though she tried not to be too obvious then that something is wrong.

She asked me to do a Breast Ultrasound right away.  She said she found some nodules ( a small mass of tissue or aggregation of cells) on my right breast, they were scattered even on my left breast. The most affected one is my right breast. She asked me if there is a history of breast cancer in the family, not that I know of.  She told me not to worry.  Damn! how cant I be? Its happening to a lot of women these days.  Could I be a victim?

I didnt have my ultrasound that day, I didnt bring enough cash knowing I would just have a consultation and everything will be okay.  I called my husband after getting out of the clinic and explained what happened in there.  He said it gonna be okay and will do my breast ultrasound the next day.  My mind was clouded with my emotion. I took a cup of my favorite latte but sitting there with a cup of coffee only makes the question bigger in my head is  "What is wrong with me?"